Hermelinda Hernandez Monjaras – BRAINFØG III

Posted byAngela Chaidez VincentPosted inHermelinda Hernandez Monjaras
Visual poem with a title that reads: BRAINFØG III. There is a light gray image behind the words, possibly an object crumpled. The poem’s orientation is landscape. On the left-hand side of the poem, the text reads: she saw me walk inside the room she saw me emerge from the kitchen she said I was screaming inside the house she said I told her I had no cousin a split second later she saw me doubling a split second later she saw me doubling in the kitchen in the room -> ecosystem -> of order Mujer -> memory -> extinct vibrations -> plates of bones -> crack in the nous -> ifract -> estuary formed as lagoon -> crack in objecttrauma I turn and toss a clicking sound shuffles sleepmuscle / twitches I drift in the hotel my legs get pulled/ not sure if it’s in my head or if it’s a medical condition On the middle of the poem at the top, the text reads: I feel someone near I’m asleep on the couch the edge of my bed it’s humid with mosquitos a sick man enters I stare at the light my room I hear a thud in the hallway a strange man comes the light switches off through my window my heart escalates and watches me sleep someone sneaks on me There are ruled lines in this middle top section that connect across lines of poetry. When rearranged according to the lines, they read: I feel someone near my heart escalates the edge of my bed it’s humid with mosquitos a sick man enters I’m asleep on the couch my room I stare at the light a strange man comes I hear a thud in the hallway through my window the light switches off and watches me sleep someone sneaks on me On the middle of the poem at the bottom, the text reads: in Seattle I enter inside a restroom I find strange inscriptions plastered on the walls I find corneas satanic symbols and images at night my bed and desk experience a small earthquake ImshoutingatamanItellhimtoleavemealoneIwakeupIhavezerorecollectionrupture On the right-hand side of the poem, there’s a triangle diagram with an a in the bottom left angle, a b at the top angle, a d at the bottom right angle, and a c inside the triangle where there’s a 90 degree angle. The text below the triangle diagram reads: a. he sees me talking to a man b. the man is wearing business casual clothes c. when he enters the room d. he sees me alone staring off into space On the right-hand side of the poem, a line starts across the page, runs down the page, and then continues sideways at the bottom, and text reads: workdepressess littlittlpeople & speeaeech stress trestress vitamin deficicienciencyy short attentiontion spansleep skeletons distorted figures & a large bed of females stems of open wounds opaque outer crests tree women shrouded in snowy ash roots grow faces or beluga heads curled bodies rest on the trunks liquid bodies with large pits of cocoons the whole damn cave is made of eyes the whole damn cave is a volcano inside a skull

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Artist’s Statement: For The Fresno 15 Creative Writing Marathon, I used 15 Rorschach I made by dabbing a red rose with paint onto paper. This series is an attempt to write on brain fog: forgetfulness, incoherent thoughts, mental fatigue, lack of clarity, and more. Each day became a challenge: the strings attached within me were reluctant to push, create, and pull; memory became a mass of confusion to frame. Luckily, these 15 days were possible due to persistence and help from my mentor, Anthony Cody, author of The Rendering. Lastly, this series is one step forward toward my future poetic work.

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