Michelle Brittan Rosado – Palmar Grasp Reflex I

Michelle Brittan Rosado

Palmar Grasp Reflex I

My index finger against his palm 
and the world inside it closes.

A flash of neurology. A game we play
in the early pastel months until the reflex

disappears. We separate instinct 
from free will, the gray morning 

from the idea of May in Los Angeles. 
Life, for now, is without seasons—somewhere 

between spring and summer, between 
flowering and unbearable light

Author’s note: The poems in this series all use the image of a window as their starting point, some in the title itself and others more peripherally. I’ve been thinking of this symbol a lot lately — as a portal for wonder in childhood, an aperture to others’ lives during the pandemic, a view of the world outside after giving birth and spending those early days indoors. These poems may not have come into existence without the invitation to contribute to The Fresno 15, and I am endlessly grateful to the MFA program for my years there and the deep sense of community I’ve carried with me since graduating in 2011. Thank you for reading and for supporting the Larry Levis Memorial Scholarship. 

Michelle Brittan Rosado – Emergency Haiku

Michelle Brittan Rosado

Emergency Haiku

operating room:
no windows, just the round light
like the last mirror

Author’s note: The poems in this series all use the image of a window as their starting point, some in the title itself and others more peripherally. I’ve been thinking of this symbol a lot lately — as a portal for wonder in childhood, an aperture to others’ lives during the pandemic, a view of the world outside after giving birth and spending those early days indoors. These poems may not have come into existence without the invitation to contribute to The Fresno 15, and I am endlessly grateful to the MFA program for my years there and the deep sense of community I’ve carried with me since graduating in 2011. Thank you for reading and for supporting the Larry Levis Memorial Scholarship. 

Steven Sanchez – Ode to Anger

Steven Sanchez

Ode to Anger

Because, last week, a bigot bashed Robert’s face
for holding his boyfriend’s hand
on the corner of Olive and Yosemite
in the pink neon glow of Tower Theatre,
because the KKK stood on that corner
for Fresno Pride, because you run
the gay bar on Olive and Broadway
and straights call you faggot in their drunken stupor,
because you always carry a switchblade,
because the bar ran out of ice one night
and you ran to the store in stilettos,
raising you from six foot to six five,
fishnet stockings wrapped
around the muscles of your calves
flexed but familiar with walking at an angle,
because I love how soft your beard feels
against my face, because a man shouted
faggot from his parked car and you said
I’d be upset if I looked as messed up as you,
because he stepped out of his car and walked toward you
and asked what the fuck did you say,
because you said did I stutter, come at me
because you pulled out your knife
because he walked back
because he drove away
because you shouted who is the faggot now
because Olive is the gayest street in Fresno,
because the night Robert got stitches
was my birthday, and I made a joke
about turning 33, about it being my Jesus year,
about how I’ll be dead soon,
because now that joke is sour,
because Mathew Shepherd was murdered
near my birthday, because my straight friend
taught me how to throw a punch:
tuck your thumb over your middle finger so you don’t break any bones,
keep your wrist straight with your forearm or you’ll sprain it,
twist your hips to gain momentum,
strike with the middle knuckle,
flip your palm towards the floor right before you hit

because I know this means he cares about me,
and
                because I love you
                                                                                                                                                                                                           violence is necessary.

Michelle Brittan Rosado – Pastoral with Floor-to-Ceiling Window of a Metro Area Airport

Michelle Brittan Rosado

Pastoral with Floor-to-Ceiling Window of a Metro Area Airport

Approaching the glass that reveals 
what lies ahead as much as
my own reflected face growing unfamiliar
then familiar again, the men 
toss suitcases into the belly
of the plane while I look on, 
though in the dream—or is this
memory—I can’t remember
if I’m returning or leaving, if this is sunrise
or waning afternoon, and who
will receive me, who might also taste 
the salt of the peanuts on my tongue
from the last city, or what was the latest
assemblage of plans, like a horizon turning 
diagonal and reveals a sky 
filled either with stars or the appearance 
of starlessness, while I pack and unpack 
the few things I could take with me, rearranging
the temporary garments of this life.

Author’s note: The poems in this series all use the image of a window as their starting point, some in the title itself and others more peripherally. I’ve been thinking of this symbol a lot lately — as a portal for wonder in childhood, an aperture to others’ lives during the pandemic, a view of the world outside after giving birth and spending those early days indoors. These poems may not have come into existence without the invitation to contribute to The Fresno 15, and I am endlessly grateful to the MFA program for my years there and the deep sense of community I’ve carried with me since graduating in 2011. Thank you for reading and for supporting the Larry Levis Memorial Scholarship. 

Steven Sanchez – Vesuvius

Steven Sanchez

Vesuvius

I’ve already forgotten
how to kiss you, my tongue
always inside my mouth
even when yours slips
inside my lips, each muscle
of your tongue a word
I’m too afraid to say.
The earth trembles
and we’re used to it.
This fault line
has shaken our city
again and again.
The first tremor
broke a vase
and blackbirds flocked
to the sky, casting us
in shadow.  You held me,
promised we’d be okay.
And another, then another.
After years, this became normal,
the quake, my tremor,
your firm embrace,
and I didn’t want to admit
that I couldn’t see us
together for long,
didn’t want to unlearn
the width of your forearm
inside my hand, holding it
around my waist.
And again, another
group of tremors,
and again, your arm
around me, our naked
bodies coated in ash.
They’ll find our bodies,
my head against your chest,
and call us lovers.