Brian Turner – The Visions

Brian Turner

The Visions

            If I took LSD, I’d be talking to every blade of grass, like Sorry! Sorry! Sorry!
                                     —Robin Williams

I’d be lying if I didn’t admit to feeling sound, 
not exactly from the outside in, but feeling it 
within the very core of my body, the body 
signaled to perceive it this way, rather than
given waves pulsing through the fluid medium
of a body in space. Of course I’m talking about
the synaptic gap, neurotransmitters with a cargo
of fire, electrical impulses, sense data streaming
across the ancient hemispheres of the brain.
I’m talking about the confusion there, that
switch, so that a visual signal might be 
crossed up and sent into regions of the mind 
where the color green tastes like lemon
sweetened by sugar, where we might hear
our lover’s bodies by touch, that brushing
of skin on skin like tiny little bells, trembling.

I’m talking about the intoxicating pull of such things.
The way Dock Ellis took to the mound in 1970
and we can’t stop thinking about it, how he threw
a no-hitter on acid, the 60’6” span tilled with furrows,
the infield grass split open in lanes of clodded dirt 
which he used as tracks, visual lanes for a fastball
or a slider, inside corner, outside corner, the man
painting the box over the course of the game, 
the ball itself burning as it flew from his hand, smoke
trailing in its wake, the batter so difficult to see,
so far away, and the catcher signaling with tape 
on his fingers like a flaring of lights in a storm, 
a kind of morse code they shared, pitch by pitch.
It was June 12, 1970. Jimi and Janis had a few months
left to live, with Morrison dying the following summer,
with all that they might have done vanishing
into the ether, etched into the stones at their graves.
There’s something about genius and art I’m thinking of
here. Something about vision, the many ways of seeing. 
It’s the pull of the mind toward experiencing it all
in ways that might elevate the profound, the ballfield
come alive once more, the dull repetition of days
ignited right in front of us, the game retextured, renewed
through a switching of signals, a blending of senses, 
the crowd become a forest of delight, cheering. 
Or is it all just candy, sweet little drops of candy? 

I’m talking about the profound all around us. 
Every moment. That we need nothing to intercede
on our behalf. We need no separation of the mind
from the body, no altering of ourselves through a fuel
meant to burn us into a blinding light, so that others
might see the world right in front of them, and 
so that we might see that world, too. This much
is true. But I’d be lying if I dismissed the experience. 
I’ve held it in my own body. I’ve tasted it on my tongue.
I have fashioned my body into a lover’s bell 
and thrummed within a chorus of souls. 
I have been a witness to the winged flyers
trailing smoke over the midnight waters of my life. 
And I have watched them disappear, one by one, 
those sweet little notes made of flame, the way 
they dive headlong into those waters, into that old river
where the boatman rows his way to us all. 

Brian Turner – Lena Blackburne Baseball Rubbing Mud

Brian Turner

Lena Blackburne Baseball Rubbing Mud

Where he gets the mud is a secret that’s been kept over 80 years,
since the days of the old timers. And now Jim Bintliff parks his truck
in the shade of a treeline along a tributary of the Delaware, 
drinks coffee from a thermos and listens to the black-throated
green warblers and scarlet tanagers calling from the canopy
of an early spring. He pauses to consider the birds he hears
but cannot see, almost as if the sycamores and silver maples
have learned to sing, with river birch calling from across the water.

He’s here to harvest the mud at low tide, his feet sunk past
the ankle, with sweat coating his arms, the back of his neck, the sun 
rising over the world until the sky is softened into a blue powder.
And Jim shovels the mud into 5-gallon buckets, mud he’ll cure
for months at home before packaging and sending off
to baseball teams across the country. This is the official mud
of Major League Baseball, and it’s rubbed into each ball 
with spit and bare hands by equipment managers before
every game. 2,430 games a year. More sometimes. Nearly
900,000 baseballs rubbed with this mud from New Jersey. 

The curved blade of the shovel in Jim’s hands—it lifts
the Ordovician, the Silurian, the Devonian, sediments 
deposited over one hundred million years, gravel and lime,
sand and stone, the landscape around him a woodcarving
done by glacier, by entire ages of ice gouging troughs 
into the Atlantic seaboard, the Appalachian Mountain range 
rising and falling into washed-out riverbeds, ravines, hollows. 
Which is a way of saying that he lifts the bodies of the dead, 
marine life from long ago, the abrasive grit of worn-out siltstone,
sandstone, claystone, fossils of plant and animal life ground
to their finest talc and film, all of this and much more—
this is what he pours into the buckets as mud.

Over 40 years he’s done this, and he plans for his daughter,
Rachel, to harvest this mud in the seasons after he’s gone. 
They are caretakers of the game. This is the work they do 
in solitude. Invisible to the field when the crowd, turned electric,
rolls a wave of applause through a sea of arms lifted to the sky. 
But they’re in every moment. Rubbed into the very canvas
of the ball. Those quiet mornings by the river. Coffee
steaming in a thermos. Rachel with her shovel in the mud.
The green crowns of trees singing all around her. 

Joseph Rios – In the Beginning

Joseph Rios

In the Beginning 

For Alana

I lived in a windowless room 
above a nightclub in Downtown LA.
Afterhours we would dance 
with the music loud, loud 
as the the colored lights
we bathed in until it was 
time to visit the Pantry 
and spin on the chairs 
watching the cooks 
make French Toast 
in Dodgers caps
until even the coffee 
couldn’t keep us awake. 

The Playlist:

There Must Be a Better Way – Friday Saturday And Sunday
Wede Harer Guzo – Hailu Mergia, Dahlak Band
We’re Running Out of Time – Oscar Weathers
Don’t You Know – Durand Jones & The Indications
Dreaming’s Out of Season – The Montclairs, Phil Perry
Words Words Words – Pratt & Moodya
Weak for Your Love – Thee Sacred Souls 
The Sky’s The Limit – The Duprees
You’re On My Mind – Rose Royce 
High On Your Love – Kings Go Forth
You Are Giving Me Some Other Love – Penny & The Quarters 
Sweetest Thing On This Side of Heaven – Papa Bear & His Cubs

Brian Turner – Instant Replay

Brian Turner

Instant Replay

The ruling on the field has been challenged
     and now the crew in New York studies
the moment in slo-mo, nearly frame by frame,
     the bang-bang play a difference 
of milliseconds, camera angles, a decision
     on when the ball enters the glove.

History will be surprised by its own error
     should the call be reversed, the runner
staying on the bag or dusting himself off
     as he walks on back into the dugout.
It’s all about timing. The perception of bodies
     in motion. Everything unfolding from this.

And as I watch the game and wait for the call
     from New York, I think of the two of us
curled up lazy in a Saturday afternoon bed, 
     your head on my chest, our conversations
about the multiverse, the many variations of us
     out there, the things we do, the things we see.      

But now that you’re gone, it’s become so clear
     that the difference between two versions
of the same moment is you, though I keep trying,
     frame by frame, to slow this gathering of years,
to reverse them into a stillness that might return us
     to one another, the clouds forming above, then

reforming, the departed returning to this life
     on their deathbeds with their loved ones
there to greet them, as I am for you, the word after
     transposed into the word now, the word love
made sweeter in its return, the word death
     transformed, finally, finally, into a gift.

Joseph Rios – Jensen Junk Yard

Joseph Rios

Jensen Junk Yard

I’m kicking rocks at the junk yard
after a heavy rain that took out the power
at my house and has filled the trunks
of these old cars, all picked clean
like roasted chickens and left floating
on jack stands made from welded rims.
Younger dudes are carrying tool bags 
for their dads, tios, grandpas. I’m jealous. 
Old paisas chat in the line about this harvest,
hands blackened like mine, shoes soaked 
in the big puddle made from a clogged drain. 
There’s an old man holding a set of gauges,
another is holding a hood, a bumper, another
is toting a used clutch from a Ford hatchback. 
None of us were made from something brand new
we were salvaged and put back together by 
someone with dirty fingernails and scarred knuckles.